The dwelling of a thoughtless teenager
Saturday, December 23, 2006
The Wallflowers- One HeadlightSo long ago, I don't remember when
That's when they say I lost my only friend
Well they said she died easy of a broken heart disease
As I listened through the cemetery trees
I seen the sun comin' up at the funeral at dawn
The long broken arm of human law
Now it always seemed such a waste
She always had a pretty face
So I wondered how she hung around this place
Hey, come on try a little
Nothing is forever
There's got to be something better than In the middle
But me & Cinderella
We put it all together
We can drive it home
With one headlight
She said it's cold
It feels like Independence Day
And I can't break away from this parade
But there's got to be an opening
Somewhere here in front of me
Through this maze of ugliness and greed
And I seen the sun up ahead
At the county line bridge
Sayin' all there's good and nothingness is dead
We'll run until she's out of breath
She ran until there's nothin' left
She hit the end-it's just her window ledge
Well this place is old
It feels just like a beat up truck
I turn the engine, but the engine doesn't turn
Well it smells of cheap wine & cigarettes
This place is always such a mess
Sometimes I think I'd like to watch it burn
I'm so alone, and I feel just like somebody else
Man, I ain't changed, but I know I ain't the same
But somewhere here in between the city walls of dyin' dreams
I think her death it must be killin' me
Friday, December 22, 2006
The Pains of ChristmasSo far my Christmas Break has sucked. I have been stuck in the house since school let out. I miss the daylight and the smell of fresh air. I wish my parents wernet being pricks about a dumb argument that caused all of this. I just found out today when I get ungrounded, not till next year. I really apprieciat my parents ruining everything for me this Christmas and destroying all the plans I had all because of some dumb college application, that they lost, getting misplaced! I wish it would get better soon. I'm ready to leave home and be on my own. I want to go off to college as soon as possible and be out of contact from my house forever. Lacrosse season needs to be starting a whole lot sooner. Being in the cage makes me feel so much better about everything. I love it when all I have to do is focus on stopping a shot and getting back to the offense. I guess that when Im in peace, when I know I cant be touched or disturbed- I'm myself in the goal.
Wednesday, December 13, 2006
Some Rest and SanctuaryWith all the time I have to update the blog i wonder why i dont..... Well, I have finally made the symphonic band this year! Its about freaking time to. I was tired of running into some form of bad luck and not be able to go, or even tryout. This year I was one of the ifrst to tryout and I played horribly. My god it was so aweful that I was sick to my stomach with it. OH well, though it got me 8th chair, but its my last year with it so I'll enjoy the time spent with a band that wants to play and not goof around.
What else could there possibly be that has made me feel good lately. Apart from being grounded again, it hasnt been so bad.I was witness to a huge fight the other day. SOme big girl was hacked at another for supposedly sleeping with her boyfriend. Yeah, I bet you know where that ended. It wasnt apologies or anything just a huge fight that resulted in a girl losing her hair and having her face screwed up for awhile. Ha, but the girl who recieved it prob. deserved it, because she most likely did sleep with the other girls boyfriend.
I dont really have school anymore this week so I'm just chilling out at places and waiting till i can go see that special someone again.Although I havent heard from her in a long time, apart from the day i visited her. I missed out on alot when I dont speak with Leah in aweek. It happens though shes a busy person and her homework makes me jealous. Yes, I said it. I'm jealous of Leahs homework! It gets more attention than me now! ( kreyton goes off and crys) Well, I kinow the reward is going to be much greater whenever she is free from the chains of school.
Right now, I'm trying to get my Ipod to work so I'm going to rap this up and work on that.Later
Tuesday, November 28, 2006
Lacrosse is over now,I'm kinda glad for that bt on ther hand I'm not. I need all the practice i can get in order to be good enough for college ball. I dont even know if ill be playing for plano west in the spring. It would be sad thing if i didnt. I dont want to have to go back to East and paly for a bunch of whinny ass's. Schools been fine i guess. I havent really done much at all. I kinda dreading college now. I dont know what I want to do still. I dont even know if I want to go play at Hendrix anymore. Lacrosse is just a sport its not going to get me anywhere in life. I need to go to a school whwre im going to be able to pay for it. I know im not getting scholarships at hendrix, its smart kid school. I know I can handle the work there but I need the money and aid to be able to go. I dont know if ill get it though. Im wanting to go into pre med and I dont want to be in debt my whole life by paying a fortune for college and then going to pay for med school. I just need to go to OU and be able to actually pay for that and then continue into there medical program afterwards. Ah! this is all so confusing to me. I want the desicion to be made for me and I want it now. On second thought I want to know the future again. I need some one to talk to but its too late to call Leah, shes prob asleep anyways. I wish I had someone to talk to here in howe. I lost that a long time ago though. There are very few ppl who understand now. I need someone here who understand me and wants to listen. I hate the phone at times and yet I have to worship A. Bell at the same time.
Saturday, November 04, 2006
Bored so therefore I update..........I"m really bored today so all i have been doing is playing WOW and working on economics here and there. This morning I had practice and that went well. Lacrosse has been good i guess. It took awhile for me to adjust to the new team and chemistry. Its alot different than what it was at East. But now that I have developed it with them they all have grown to like me and call me the "samurai". Apparently, I look like a samurai in the cage and all the crazy saves are really sick to them.
Schools going well. Im happy with my grades except for one and my senior year hasnt been so bad. I wish it was more tradtional, but we cant all have what we want. Well, now i have nothing to do at all today I was planning on going to see Leah but she had other plans. Oh well, though ill just get on with my day and play WOW and other things. I havent evern hung out with my friends lately. I guess with me being gone all the time I just havent had time for friends. I dont know though. Friends are always there so I'm to worried if they are without me for a long while. I have one or two games tomorrow and dont know if I will be in the varsity or JV game. Long story and I dont feel like typing it.
OK, now im really frustrated about something I dont really feel like typing now. I wish I had a punching bag or something. I hate it when nothing goes the way I want it to go. Disappointments a part of life though. I need to go find something to cheer me up a bit before I start pissing ppl off.
Saturday, October 07, 2006
My visit to Hendrix College.......These past couple of days I have been in the state of Arkansas visiting a small college very few people of known about. Well, this college was home at first sight. The atmosphere was great! I felt really welcome and wanted. Everyone was really nice from the moment we got there. One senior actually took their own time to show me around the campus. It was such a beautiful place. A nice small college secluded by the woods. I talked to one of the professors and he was actually a smart ass. He was really funny and had his own way of making the students feel welcome. He also knew just about everything on elephants! Apparently there is a elephant farm outside of Conway that he helps out with.
I thought about alot of things on my way there. I concluded that what is going to happen is for the best in my life. It doesnt sound fun or anything but it has to be done.
I will also be playing on the Hedrix inagrual lacrosse team whenever I go. Its going to lots of being the only contact sport on campus. The whole school is psyhced about it! They are ready for the new sport to come in. Theres also an hug new sports complex they have built for it too! A huge turf field just for lacrosse players!
Im going to end this here and go do some more important things with my life.
Friday, September 29, 2006
I hate friday night lightsyet another day to where we have to watch are "famouse" football team try to beat a state qualifying team. Why is that they can t just accept that they suck! Im tired of hearing how great they are this year. Guess what! you all still suck in my book! you only beat a convict school..............there is know way that they're going to beat any other school in our district. I also despise band. Im ready for concert/solo season to start up so I can focus on my playing. Our marching show sucks, our playing sucks, our d.m. sucks and one of our directors suck. We have we consistently sucked for 3 years striaght? I'm so glad its my seniour year. Im going to buy my ring today! I'm so happy! I didnt want one last year because I didnt think I would wear it much but now I want one. I wants it! It think thats all I have on my update. Oh wait! Its leah and my 1 year and 1 month anniversary today! woot woot! Love ya cuddle bug!
Blarg
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