The dwelling of a thoughtless teenager
Thursday, June 29, 2006
Can you recreate love?Is it possible to recreate love that has been doubted? Even if that love was doubted for a second. Why must everyone only remember the horrible parts of a relationship and not the most amazing memories that will stay with you forever? Whenever in worry of a relationship falling apart just look back at all the best times you have had together and realize....... Why............Why did I falter........Why did I shake in the cold loneliness when right here........Right in front of me is a wonderful person. A person that is always going to be there for me. A person who has always held us up and kept us going.
So do we remember the bad parts of a relationship or do you forget and enjoy the time together. Life is short everyone. Do you want to spend that time with the one you love arguing and worrying? Instead remember the great times together. First dates,first movie together,first kiss,ATSSB auditions. What ever it might be......Enjoy it and love it!
Stone Sour -Through Glass
I'm looking at you through the glass
Don't know how much time has passed
Oh God it feels like forever
But no one ever tells you that forever
Feels like I'm sitting all alone inside your head
How do you feel, that is the question
But I forget, you don't expect an easy answer
When something like a soul becomes initialized
And folded up like paper dolls and little notes
You can't expect to bitter folks
And while you're outside looking in
Describing what you see
Remember what you're staring at is me
'Cause I'm looking at you through the glass
Don't know how much time has passed
All I know is that it feels like forever
When no one ever tells you that forever
Feels like home, sitting all alone inside your head
How much is real, so much to question
And never dare make up the mannequins
Contaminating everything
When thought came from the heart
It never did right from the start
Just listen to the noises (No more sad voices)
Before you tell yourself
It's just a different scene
Remembering is just different from what you've seen
I'm looking at you through the glass
Don't know how much time has passed
And all I know is that it feels like forever
When no one ever tells you that forever
Feels like home, sitting all alone inside your head
(REFRAIN): And it's the stars
The stars that shine for you
And it's the stars
The stars that lie to you
I'm looking at you through the glass
Don't know how much time has passed
Oh God it feels like forever
But no one ever tells you that forever
Feels like home, sitting all alone inside your head
'Cause I'm looking at you through the glass
Don't know how much time has passed
All I know is that it feels like forever
But no one ever tells you that forever
Feels like home, sitting all alone inside your head
I also hate the picture that is loaded currently! NOW! I am replacing it!
The other day something happened. Leah and I have been going out for 10 months now. Out of those 10 Months not once have we celebrated it. Instead I am filled with something that I guess can be related to joy.
I think this has become more of a on-line journal than an update type thing.
I think I'm going through another one of those depressed stages. Everyday I feel as if everybody has something against me. Whether it has to do with what I have done, personality or even if I just exist.
Why are people so hateful towards each other. Why does it bother us if someone makes a mistake, when we aren't even affected by it? Why do we find ourselves talking about other peoples problems when we cant solve our own? Why do we continue to do all these things? Why cant we just enjoy the life around us and take what we can get instead of viewing the world as a miserable place?
Why do I enjoy being loved but feel as if people just feel sorry for me.I continually worry that everyone around me is just there because they feel sorry for me.
I think my last year here will be miserable. I have a feeling I'm going to want to commit suicide and just get life over with. All I want is to get past school and see where I am in 15 years. Is there a family for me to come home to? Do I have a successful job. Do I still have all my original friends. Did I marry the woman I truly love?
I do complain too much on here! Maybe there's something enlightening in my life.
There really isn't anything exciting going on right now. Jarod and I are starting web series, using the Halo 2 engine. We have created the first story-line and are currently working on the storyboard for the first episode and writing the script out. I think I'm going to create another blog until we have created the first series and official web site. The blog will be used for updates to everyone involved and other news.
Tuesday, June 20, 2006
Leahs Awesome Schedule of Life!OK! I think I have discovered Leah's average day!
Morning - Wake up at 530 A.M. and go running
Get ready for school and go to college till 1200
Afternoon- Come home from college and either do a little bit of homework or take a long nap that last until she is either woken up by something or by me calling her.
Evening- Eat and do homework go downstairs and watch some form of TV and hang out with family.
Either she may call me, very seldomley, or I will call and talk to her while she falls asleep listening to my ramblings about nothing.
Wow............ She has such a wonderful fun-filled day. Imagine doing that everyday, 60 seconds a minute, 60 minutes and hour, 24 hours a day, 7 days a week, 52 weeks a year, 365 days a year and everyday of your life until you make it out of college and on your own!
Leah I think you need to do something extra curricular. Just a suggestion you know.
Oh yeah! She also does band on the side but that's only during school. Also drill team! GO Cats!
Did I just say "Go Cats!"........... Should we worry about my sanity now?
Monday, June 19, 2006
Denver TripIt seems whenever I truly want to write on here I always talk about sad things and emotions. Well, forgive me for being an emotional person!
I just got back from Denver. I got home at about 5 30 in the morning and let me tell you a few things that I was a part of. You all know I went to the University of Denver to participate in a lacrosse tournement with the North Texas All-Stars,AKA Team Penetrations. The tournament went alright if you consider only winning 3 out of 7. We placed 11th out of the whole thing but it was a great experience. I didn't do my best at all. I had some of the worst games in my life. What made it worse was the fact that the Denver Coaches were watching. Oh well, I just have to figure something else out so they are atleast interested in me.
Enough about lacrosse though. I'm sick and tired of playing it. I just want a couple of months off so I can just lay back and worry about other, more important things.
There are a lot of things that we all saw and said during this trip that everyone enjoyed. I think the trip with friends and rivals was much better than the actual tournament. There was the Hunger-Busters, The Square, the landscape, New Mexico, Mitur Binisdirty, Team Penetrations, Bret sleeping with his eyes open, Coach Ide "twooooo laps". So many things to talk about and only a few that understand what I'm talking about.
Ok, I've decided on either moving to Europe or Colorado whenever I'm done with college.
Lacrosse has worn out on me. Maybe playing for a college isn't want I want. Maybe I just want to get into college and not care about what team I play for or who or what division they play in.
The University of Oklahoma is looking good. I talked to Brian about it. He said HE is only paying six thousand a year for tuition and that's with out of state fees added in! So my college future is looking brighter now.
Or............
Maybe............
Maybe I'll just follow Leah to whatever college she decides to go to..............
I don't know though that prob. Wouldn't go over well with the folks and her parents. I don't care though.
You know I forgot what I was going to really write about on here. Maybe if it comes back to me I'll write about it.
Thursday, June 01, 2006
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Well I'm a pretty easy going person.I love excitement.I can listen to music all day.I enjoy being around my friends and ppl I love. I love creating chaos!
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