The dwelling of a thoughtless teenager
Sunday, December 18, 2005
There's a 4 a.m.!Lets just do a quick update before I forget anything. Well, last night Celina won the state title! Congrats to them.
I had a long ass day yesterday. I'm still a little tired from it. I had two lacrosse games which were quite fun. The richardson lax club actually canceled there season this year which was really disappointing for them. So, instead of them not being able to play we actually invited them to our team. They have alot of unnoticed talent and its going to help our team out alot. I'm predicting state title this year! We're not going to get screwed over like we did last year.
I was asked to go play a indoor game by one of the new Richardson kids. They had to play ESD and that was a freaking awesome game! I dont care if it ended in a tie or not. ESD has so many amazing players and Richardson has some awesome offensive players. Holy crap, I'm all pumped about this coming season!
I would have more for you guys but I'm going to keep it to myself.
Later,Kreyton
Sunday, December 11, 2005
Color of Sorrow is back!Today, I found myself sneaking out again. I wanted to go to our band practice and so I did. When I say band practice I mean the rock band I'm a part of. We had lots of progress. Especially after 3-4 months of not doing anything. We remade our first song "Away." I believe I'm going to change the title of it since Colby rewrote the guitar piece, I rewrote the lyrics and we actually made a bass line for it. It sounds so freakin wicked now.
Yesterday I stayed home all day and remodeled my room.
Congrats to Celina on winning there game yesterday. I hope they win in the state championship game. I'm sure they will considering they have slaughtered every team that has challenged them. I hope I get to go to that game. That is if I am ungrounded by then. I hope Leah's not irritated by the fact that every 2 to 3 weeks I'm grounded for something.
Later
Wednesday, December 07, 2005
Some thoughts of a random teenagerWell, I guess I'm going to update. I have had a lot of thoughts going through my head a t a million mile per hour and some caught my attention. One he ones that caught my attention I pondered on them for hours during school. Fro some reason I could focus on anything at all today because of this.
Well, lets start with one that's stuck out.
Have you ever effected someone's life? Has anybody ever affected you? Well, I finally remembered earlier today that I had a effect on one of my past elementary friends. There was this girl back in the 5th grade. She had a couple friends and was very loud. She unfortunately was born with defects. She was born prematurely and almost died at birth. Luckily the doctors saved her life and for the first couple of years she was on medications and a feeding tube. After she was pulled off the feeding tube the doctors told her parents that sadly she would only live till she was about 10 years old.........She was 11 when I met her.
I had the pleasure of meeting her when I used to live in Oklahoma. I effected her life in a way. I gave her friendship and she was did the same for me. Now, she wasn't the most popular and being a little toddler many kids didn't want to mix with the different kids. I didn't care what they thought though. I hung out with her and helped her with school work and everything else.
On the last day of school her parents came up to me and told me how much they appreciated me giving her my friendship.That summer I left and never heard from them again.
Today I though about that girl and wondered what had happened to her...She had deceived all olds of survival and proved those who doubted her strength to live wrong. I guess wheat I'm trying to say is that you effect people in more ways than just one. You leave an impression on them.
I had some more thoughs go throuh my mind but its just stuff that i didnt need to worry about. I tend to do that a lot, i worry too much about stuff that doesnt matter.
Well, i better get back to studying for all my tests tomorrow! Oh by the way! ITS SNOWING! YEA!
Later, Kreyton
Friday, December 02, 2005
The week just became darkerAs if I thought my week could not get any darker. I guess I spoke to soon yesterday. Well, this will be the second time in one day to write on this little blog of mine. I feel as if I have no one to ever talk to about my feelings. Well, I have Leah but the phone just sucks. I need someone here with me right now. I have sadly decide to drop out and quit everything that I know and love. This coming Monday I'm quitting band and jazz, quitting explorers, and quitting lacrosse. My whole life is being decided by my grades and since I failed one class my parents have seen fit that I am going to fail at life. This could possibly be the worst day of my life. I don't know if I should be bitching about this on the web when there are other problems in the world but right now I have no one to talk to.
Its amazing how a long walk can settle you down. I grabbed my jacket and just left my home for a good 2 hours to just think to myself. Have I just destroyed my life this week? I certainly hope this doesn't follow me forever. My parents are destroying mine in an instant. They have grounded me for a good three fucking weeks! I cannot express how much anger I have right now. Its not fucking fair at all. This is all my fault though. If I would have just passed my stupid English class I would be getting to see Leah every weekend but NO!
I feel as if I'm ready to give up on everything. I'm ready to just drop out of school. Is my life really pointless. My parents make it seem as if it is. I feel as if I have nothing to live for anymore. With the current grades I have I wont be going to college and doing the things I love to do. They make it sound as if I'm just going to work at a fast food restaurant for the rest of my life and live in a low income apartment.
No this is not a suicide note if anybody is getting that idea. I am just merely expressing my feelings right now.
Ok, since I don't know any other way to lay off some steam that has been building up all week, I have decide to write in this. Lets start with the very beginning.
Monday- English kicks my ass for just one day, and Mrs Hughes hates everything I have to write about. Isn't English supposed to be about opinions on everything you read. Well according to her I have the dumbest opinions because there not with what the class agrees on.
Tuesday- I lose my job at the auto shop. One of the bosses wouldn't give me a good enough reason on why he was letting me go. I'm not going to elaborate more on this.
Wednesday-I have been notified that I am failing English. Yea!
Thursday- All-Region! Well, I was so screwed over on this day. I cant decide if it was my fault that I was marked DNA ( Did Not Arrive) or it was the false information on when I could play given to me by a monitor. I'm not going to say its anybodies fault but I think it was mostly my irresponsibility to be on time that killed me.This particular day has been on my mind ever since I found out I was marked DNA. I worked so hard on my music and didn't even get a chance to audition. This was prob. the worst thing that could happen to me this week. Wheres a window whenever you need it. Leah did give an alternative punching bag though!LOL!
Firday- Well, apart from the dread of going to school and being shot down by every band nerd there, then nothing has gone wrong yet. I think the worst thing that could happen right now is if I dont get to see Leah Tomorrow.
Such a lonely day
And its mine
The most loneliest day of my life
Such a lonely day
Should be banned
This day that I can't stand
The most loneliest day of my life
The most loneliest day of my life
Such a lonely day
Shouldn't exist
A day that Ill never miss
Such a lonely day
And its mine
The most loneliest day of my life
And if you go, I wanna go with you
And if you die, I wanna die with you
Take your hand and walk away
The most loneliest day of my life
The most loneliest day of my life
The most loneliest day of my life
Life
Such a lonely day
And its mine
A day that I'm glad I survived
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Well I'm a pretty easy going person.I love excitement.I can listen to music all day.I enjoy being around my friends and ppl I love. I love creating chaos!
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